Dinner with my Baba

I talked in my last post "Recap of the Past 24 Hours" that I was going to be going for dinner with my grandma, and I did go on Monday with her. We went for a walk in Major Hill Park and then started our way through the Market to try and find a restaurant that we wanted to eat at. While walking, my sister called to say that she wanted to come with us for supper so I invited her and told her to join us. We ended up deciding to go to Stella; it's one of my favourite nicer places in the market that has really good italian food and a great atmosphere. The three of us ordered and talked, and when the food arrived, my sister had two bites then looked uber pale and said she wasn't feeling well and excused herself to the bathroom. When she came back she said that she had to go home cause she wasn't feeling good and she wanted to lay down. So then it was back to just Baba and me like the original plan. This was the plan because I came out to my grandma over this supper; this was important as she's the only family member who doesn't know and I'm super close with her so I wanted to do it in person rather than my mom telling her. I wasn't nervous to tell her cause we're so close, but I had NO clue how she'd react - anyone who knows Baba knows she's often focused on her own thoughts and her own world and is very oblivious to her surroundings....this was no different. haha. I told her "I'm gay" and she responded with, "You're good? That's good! I'm happy that you're good!" hahaha. After recaping what she just missed, we had a really awesome conversation about it (actually way better than the one with my mom a few years ago! lol.) Who'd have thought Baba would be the best convo and had the best questions - not like my mom's first question of "does this mean you're going to start sleeping with everyone?" Hahaha. So it was a good convo, great supper, and amazing company! The evening couldn't have gone better, cause after bringing my grandma back to the hotel, Emilie and Laurice finished graduating so I met them at the National Art Center, took a couple pics and then went to Emilie's where the three of us sat around, got drunk and went to bed finally around 3am only to have to be up at 7:45 for my 8am class. It was all worth it!

Gone are the days of Honesty

Why is it that it seems that nobody is honest? Why are people so cowardly or think that people are better off or not able to handle honesty? I can't speak for everybody but I can honestly say that I 100% would rather someone be completely honest with me, like I am with them, than tell me what they think I want to hear or not tell me what they're thinking cause they don't want to hurt my feelings. Whether it's about relationships or friendships or just plain talking to people......BE HONEST PEOPLE! I've made it almost 23 years through a less than protected lifestyle, so trust me...I can handle your honesty.

When it comes to meeting people online, I believe this is where society is with a new social medium to meet people and it's really no different from meeting someone at a bar or a grocery store. Just as someone in person can not be honest, but when it comes to people online people seem to easily (and more often) hide behind their internet facades; world wide web fabrications. Using the screen as a filter o true personality allowing them to become the idealistic version of the person they believe you want to meet. And no matter how honest you may be, and how deep a connection (or for how long) you have with someone met online, you inevitably have no certainty as to how much of the person you know is the real person you were hoping to meet.

This being said about talking to people online, the same can be said for people in the non-digital world (aka real world lol). If someone is interested in me as more than a friend when I'm only into them as a friend, then I'll let them know. I don't think it's better to avoid the issue or pretend the issue isn't there. I have confidence that the friend can take it and remain friends despite the fact that I don't have the exact same feelings towards them as they have to me. Just because someone is into you and you're not back doesn't equate to and either or situation: One person can have stronger feelings that are more than friendship and still remain friends. Just as if I was into someone and they weren't into me, I'd rather just know their feelings than not and remain friends than in a weird limbo of not talking about the issue or of losing the friend; I'd rather remain friends than lose that connection with someone.

So in short, I don't get the lack of honesty it seems that people have. Have more faith in people's resilience and just tell them the truth. Whether it's you only really think of them as friends and wanna keep it that way, to what you look like over the internet to that the dress your friend is trying on at a store is less than flattering - be honest. My challenge is for people reading this start now; respect your friends, or the people you're talking to, to tell them the truth. Be honest! ;)