Gone are the days of Honesty

Why is it that it seems that nobody is honest? Why are people so cowardly or think that people are better off or not able to handle honesty? I can't speak for everybody but I can honestly say that I 100% would rather someone be completely honest with me, like I am with them, than tell me what they think I want to hear or not tell me what they're thinking cause they don't want to hurt my feelings. Whether it's about relationships or friendships or just plain talking to people......BE HONEST PEOPLE! I've made it almost 23 years through a less than protected lifestyle, so trust me...I can handle your honesty.

When it comes to meeting people online, I believe this is where society is with a new social medium to meet people and it's really no different from meeting someone at a bar or a grocery store. Just as someone in person can not be honest, but when it comes to people online people seem to easily (and more often) hide behind their internet facades; world wide web fabrications. Using the screen as a filter o true personality allowing them to become the idealistic version of the person they believe you want to meet. And no matter how honest you may be, and how deep a connection (or for how long) you have with someone met online, you inevitably have no certainty as to how much of the person you know is the real person you were hoping to meet.

This being said about talking to people online, the same can be said for people in the non-digital world (aka real world lol). If someone is interested in me as more than a friend when I'm only into them as a friend, then I'll let them know. I don't think it's better to avoid the issue or pretend the issue isn't there. I have confidence that the friend can take it and remain friends despite the fact that I don't have the exact same feelings towards them as they have to me. Just because someone is into you and you're not back doesn't equate to and either or situation: One person can have stronger feelings that are more than friendship and still remain friends. Just as if I was into someone and they weren't into me, I'd rather just know their feelings than not and remain friends than in a weird limbo of not talking about the issue or of losing the friend; I'd rather remain friends than lose that connection with someone.

So in short, I don't get the lack of honesty it seems that people have. Have more faith in people's resilience and just tell them the truth. Whether it's you only really think of them as friends and wanna keep it that way, to what you look like over the internet to that the dress your friend is trying on at a store is less than flattering - be honest. My challenge is for people reading this start now; respect your friends, or the people you're talking to, to tell them the truth. Be honest! ;)

Brampton

Here's a story about a person who was randomly brought into my life a little while ago and unknowing at the time would make one of the most influential changes to me. This person is Dan; or better known amongst my friends and I by his nickname "Brampton". I met Brampton randomly on a chat site online when he was in a chat room with dozens of ravenously horny old men begging him to remove clothes etc. Enter me into the chat room and the animals now had new meat to try to convince to entertain them. Brampton and I quickly became the center of attention in that room (not that I'm complaining since I love being the center of attention and he does too). We started private messaging and talking privately while the hungry men sent messages in the group chat, trying to seduce one of us to begin removing clothes; the group didn't know that Brampton and I were getting to know each other and having our own chat on the side where we talked about the creeps in the main chat. We'd then go back to the main chat and type things egging the group to seduce each other. Hahahaha. It was hilarious! Brampton and I eventually left the group and ended up chatting a lot for a number of days and each time we chatted on msn it would be for hours on end. Eventually, one time he said he was going to come visit for the weekend. I was sooooo nervous but uber excited! I sat on the front porch waiting. He arrived and we had a great fun weekend which included leaving the movies to be called to help remove drunk friends from sidewalks and get them into their beds after laying in their own vomit! lol. Then after he left we continued to talk all the time and I planned to go down to visit him when he was going to be performing in a musical. I trained down to visit him and while in Toronto we went to the CN Tower and all over the place. Randomly we went to Niagara Falls on a whim. We went for supper, watched fireworks over the falls (which as anyone who really knows me knows that fireworks are one of my true loves that bring a childlike pure joy to me), and then headed back to his home. The next day I saw his musical which was amazing and the time there was indescribable. I headed back home and we continued to chat on and off and then our lives got the better of us and took over. I admit up until the last little while, I've always led an insanely busy life with no time for myself let alone others, but Brampton's life is like tenfold on mine!

I hate that we don't talk very often anymore because the impact he made in my life, I don't think anyone will ever understand. We didn't even know each other for very long but we had such an understanding of each other. When we hung out together, he treated me like I was the only person in the entire universe and that only I mattered. He showed me how I should love and respect myself enough to realize that THAT is how me (and everyone) deserves to be treated and that it should be what I have with the person I'm with and if not, why not - everyone deserves it. The short time that I've known Brampton, he's taught me about myself more than most of the people I've been with or have met. Even though over the past 9 months our communication hasn't been the greatest (sporadic at best), I still (and think I always will) consider him one of my closest friends. I almost wish there was some way that I could thank and tell Brampton how much he means to my life and how much he's helped me realize not only what I'm capable of having, but what everyone SHOULD have and nothing less. I know I've told him on msn and stuff and number of times, but I don't think words really explain.

I now think that everyone deserves what I had been shown by Brampton last year. Everyone deserves to feel as the most important person on the planet to someone. Everyone deserves to have true joy and excitement and fun with someone and smile! :D It's hard to actually realize this yourself. Everyone enters and leaves dead-end relationships with friends and significant others (or maybe insignificant others) but too often we fight for these relationships to not end when they're really not nearly what we deserve. We settle even when we pretend to our friends and ourselves that we aren't. When we're sad about a relationship ending that is less than perfect, we have to realize we all deserve perfect and suddenly this pseudo relationship isn't as sad to come to an end. This is what Brampton taught me and hopefully through me he can help you realize this; and if he can't hopefully very soon you all get to experience it cause you deserve it more than you think!

Lacey

So as I sit in Bridgehead (a fair trade, organic coffee shop) in my athletic CK black briefs (to allow more breathability on this scorching hot and humid day), I'm racking my brain to think of something I wanna blog about. I came here to do my blogging cause since I moved to my new apt I decided to not get internet but rather tether internet from my phone's data plan when I need internet and when I wanna stream tv (cause I don't have a tv or cable either) I just go to campus and catch up on my shows; however, I've reached my data plan max for the month and so I'm stealing internet here to blog. I've already posted on my Underwear You Want It blog but for some reason, today it's easier to write about underwear and not about my life! Hahaha. And as the caffeine is definitely kicking in, as seen in my jittery body and twitching legs, it gets harder and harder to concentrate on a topic to blog about. I ask Lacey via Facebook chat what I should blog about and she give me no good advice here (thanks Lace). Then I know! I'll write about Lacey today! She's RIDICULOUSLY important to me AND besides her being one of my best friends and one of the most amazing people in the world, she's been with me in countless ridiculous times in my life! So here we go, all about Lacey today....

I met Lacey in Grade 6 when I just moved to Timmins from Ottawa in the middle of the school year. I remember the moment we met and I think neither of us had any clue how important that moment would be to lead us to this spot 11 years later. We became UBER close in high school with our many drunken adventures and parties, etc. Many of our friends are the same so we were together all the time. Remember when you leave high school and it's the biggest thing in the world cause everyone's leaving and you don't know what you're going to do with your life and everybody's like "nothing's going to be the same" and you think you'll never see anyone again; kinda how it feels all over again when you graduate university. I remember our almost sacred "good byes" that our core group of friends did at Tim Hortons by J&B (yeah Tim Hortons! We're from northern Ontario, not a lot of places to hang out! Get over it! lol). I've learned since being in university that yeah things and friends change when major life events (like leaving for university); however, I believe people come into your life for a purpose and are meant to be there when and for the amount of time they are there. These "life events" can almost be seen as a test to cleanse yourself of people who aren't really in your life for any beneficial reason anymore and the ones that stay are meant to and the bond gets stronger. If the friendship is important to each other, like Lacey and mine, then distance doesn't matter. Granted it SUCKS that I can't just see Lacey whenever I want cause she lives over 400km away, but she's come to visit me here a few times over the years and I've seen her when I've gone to Toronto and Guelph, as well as when we're both back home. It's almost like Lacey and I do live close though because we talk on the phone pretty much every day for usually a couple hours on end. I can't wait till I can see her again though and party with her! Some of the best partying in my life was along side this woman!

I honestly can't imagine what my life would be like if I had never met Lacey or if she ever leaves my life! I know she'll be around for a long time (cause forever is a really long time! lol). We are each other's emotional rocks when things are shitty, stressful or rough, and each other's shrinks when we need advice. Next summer, she will be one of the 4 of us backpacking Europe (which will be amazing and I'll be surprised if we don't die!) and then after that when I move to Australia for the year, I know that things won't change with Lacey and I cause we'll still talk all the time and I imagine see each other just as much as we do now.

Lacey, you're AMAZING and i love you! I can't wait till I see you again (and get drunk!) Both our mom's treat each other as their own kids and I'm excited to see how much stronger our relationship will grow over my lifetime. Till then, I look forward to hearing you on the phone today and can't wait to see you when I go back home for the golf tournament (which is really more of a drinking tournament to me with the option to golf)!

Love ya! Don't ever change! (unless you're going to change where you live to be Ottawa and then Australia lol).

Start of Success!

So this is my first blog post on my first blog! (Not really sure if that's the right lingo). I hope I even post this properly haha. I'm making this blog because it's the closest I can get to my own reality tv show. When this blog becomes famous enough though, I know they'll be trying to get the show started. Also, my blog is named "My Life is Ridiculous!" mainly because it's true! haha Also, as a few of my friends know, I've planned on writing an autobio titled that, full of short stories that I have been through and survived through that are RIDICULOUS! And people (yes I know that TONS of people will be reading this VERRRRY shortly)...please bear with the beginning phases of this blog while I figure out how to post things and make it better! This blog will keep you updated on mine and my friends' lives as well as anything I think is interesting or wanna let you in on. Enjoy!